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Sometimes when dusk sets in,
when it's dark and not even you can see your own expression, these anecdoctal snapshots of vines start creeping in slowly on you; Deeper than the core of your brain. Warmly comforted in a chilly room, the battle between Heaven and Hell.. Flashes blinded the eyes, raw flesh beneath the sewn wound bled. Dear God, whomever you may be, what is it that I am supposed to feel? Why have you made me confused, why have you made my mind an orphan, and presented me a trackless soul. My brain is drained, my limbs are tired.. My posture has slumped, my feet are dragged. The uncountable commitments each mounted on top of one another, looks a rat to a pile of stones, weighs a truck on the strained back. At the end of each labelled path when the sun finally stops beating down, it's you I await to see.. And it's you whom I await to plaster a smile as cheery as the sun that was beating down. Because that is what I want for you, too. :)
nothing hurts like love | |
3:43 PM
July has been a crazy month.
Been slacking for almost 2 weeks already, it really is time to pour some thinner over that superglue. I need to work! Been teddy after teddy, so tiring. Why can't somebody right be around once and for all, or just let nobody appear at all. Nothing seems right, nothing seems like reality anymore. I am a human-being that has lost touch.. I am not happy. I want to be appreciated because I am XueYun, because I am who I am. And not because I am 'just a companion', easily replaced. I feel like I am crossing a busy road in the middle of town, I hear the cars honking, traffic lights blinking, I smell the waft of cigarette smoke from behind me, and the incessant chattering from strangers all around me. But as I turn around, I am alone, all alone, as I cross the busy road in town all by myself.
nothing hurts like love | |
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xue :D |