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Fashion Show @ Zouk again last night.
FruFru & Firefly, Murder & Stray. Collections were cool, looking forward to drop by retail shops :) Drank a little after, hitched a ride from transport to sk. Too energetic yesterday for a girl who didn't sleep the whole night, only feeling the lethargy now. Plus point : Sound sleep the entire night, been a long time..
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5:38 PM
Why is it so true, that evil is so much easier to be seen or accused,
regardless whether it is true or not. And good, on the other hand, is always piled right at the bottom. Why is it that, my viewpoint from your direction, everything seems wrong and overturned. Why is it that, it's natural and normally accepted that I should be the more unfairly treated one, just because I'm older and more independent? Everything has a good side, as well as the ugly side. And why should you, smile proudly and accept compliments when your friends are envious of you for my independence. Go around telling the whole world it's a load off your mind that I can take care of myself for most things, But yet, not be able to accept the negative side of my independence and dump the blame on yourself? So does that mean that, independence, is something proud and worthy to have when it's shining brightly under chandeliers, but something to blame and be ashamed about when poor lightings are compromising the beauty of it? Why can't I, for once, be the young and naive, dependent and childish one. That one where all I have gotta do is to whine to get things my way. For once, be the one who gets all the better treatment and bask on clean beaches with shades and suntan lotion, instead of the one out on the rocky sea trying to look out for any bad signs? Is it fair? Should I be happy and contented? Am I right, or wrong? Or am I wrong when I'm wrong, and wrong when I'm right as well? I don't know.. Sometimes, it doesn't mean that if you've done your job, I'd have felt it. If you chose to take this path with us, don't complain. If you were afraid, you should've just stayed on your same path in the first place. Doing your job does not mean doing what YOU think you SHOULD have done. You forgot all about how I feel. It's not just about you.. How about me? Could I, be allowed to be selfish, just once?
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11:00 PM
Two weeks ago, the first day of school, damn, did I feel like shit.
Gotten used to the hectic work lifestyle, it was weird to adjust, even weirder feeling to feel like a student again. No, it's not carrying books and dressing down and sitting down in lectures, those were easy. There isn't a choice of talking or not talking to somebody at work. You don't have to try because you've just got to. Whether it's because of work-related duties, communication with superiors, when you're just bored slacking around when you've done your job, or simply because you want a smoking partner. School, ha, I turned up at orientation and left after 5mins, not wanting to get involved in supposed 'dumb' and 'kiddy' games. Well, everyone thought they were, even those who turned up for orientation. But the difference is that, it were those games everyone dreaded, that created ties and bonds between the class, and it was how these little cliques are formed. And man it was obviously shown when I walked in late on my first day. You see many unfamiliar faces staring back at your face, and it's written all over 'you mean this girl's in our class? Never seen her!' And needless to say, it was MY job to make friends and talk. No, I'm not saying that my class wasn't nice, nor were they unfriendly. I just thought I wanted to remember these thoughts somewhere. After two weeks (though it's just 6 lessons), it's gotten better, and of course I've found my own friends. Everything's going well, okay, I admit sewing and drawing sucks. And even too much of looking at beautiful models donning latest trends can actually get me sick and tired. But at least I want to go to school everyday. It's no longer a chore or trying to sleep secretly during classes. I just don't want to miss out on anything anymore! I enjoy going to school to learn something that will ultimately be interesting, if it isn't already is. It's just like how much I enjoyed myself at Stila, playing around with colours and faces, despite the only chore being waking up.. Just got home a couple of hours back from a fashion show at Zouk, including a mini gay-movie marathon after. Met Ange, Cand and that whole gang after 1/2 a year of a double job stint. I missed all these feelings! It's like finding myself all over again, and realising how much I lost out on, my social life, in comparisn with being really comfortable with a well-fed wallet. Well, I've only realised that I missed many things when I was working, it's not like I can still opt to be really broke just to enjoy myself. (On the other hand, where do you get these enjoyment fees when you've sacrificed your wallet?) Therefore my hint is clear, donations are gladly welcomed and sincerely accepted. :p This finally looks like a decent blog entry after eons of 'short and sweet' comments nobody exactly understands. I hope I'll be bothered to continue. Till then. :)
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5:22 AM
Week-long holiday in Bangkok.
It was crazy, crazy time with my family, crazy time shopping, the crazy water sports in Pattaya. Loved it. Had such a good time, never felt like this for the longest time. Half a year of being a workaholic, I finally felt super fantastic despite the hectic schedule of the tour group! School started today. All was ok, hopefully will get better though. Till then! :)
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xue :D |