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teeheeheeeeeee. ok im sorry. -tugs collar, straightens shirt. ahem. haha! anywayyys. im bonkers. i think i knoe why. my house comp's so screwed, resulting in my overstress! fwahhhhh. lol. im bored lah! e only reason why im so able t type a nice entry sitting down and not stressing out, is BECAUSE. IM NOT AT HOME. wow, how amazing. pardon me for my lameness. haha. anybody wanna finance a clown t put at my place?! den i wouldnt be THIS bored always. LOL. anywayyyyyyyyyyyyys. some retard's messing my hair! ughhhh. e messy hair style's in fashion. i think hairastylists in e future do not need certs. LOL. ok out of point. yeeeeeee-ha. yuani get well soon okay! =D yup, went school today. for whatsoever reason i wonder. cos i was only there for less than 2 hrs, sorry mom. for wasting your hard earned money on useless bus fare. hahahahahah. ok sorry. (((((((((: i miss you, you and youu! (actually i miss myself e most).
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8:32 PM
oasis - don't go away
cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say about the things caught in my mind and as the day is dawning my plane flew away with all the things caught in my mind and I wanna be there when you're coming down and I wanna be there when you hit the ground so don't go away say what you say but say that you'll stay forever and a day in the time of my life 'cause i need more time yes, i need more time, just to make things right damn my situation and the games i have to play with all the things caught in my mind damn my education i can't find the words to say about the things caught in my mind and I wanna be there when you're coming down and I wanna be there when you hit the ground so don't go away say what you say but say that you'll stay forever and a day in the time of my life 'cause i need more time yes, i need more time, just to make things right me and you what's going on? all we seem to know is how to show the feelings that are wrong so don't go away say what you say but say that you'll stay forever and a day in the time of my life 'cause i need more time yes, i need more time, just to make things right and don't go away say what you say but say that you'll stay forever and a day in the time of my life 'cause i need more time yes, i need more time, just to make things right so don't go away this song's like it's exactly made for me. it's exactly what i wanna say. sigh, don't go away. i just need more time t make things right. i don't wanna lose you. i really don't. read thru all e smses you've sent me which i saved. read thru e letters you gave me. you told me you'd always love me. till e day i was wit someone else. you told you'd always be waiting. till e day i tell you i don't love you. it's our 3rd month. remember e day we got tgt? you accompanied me down all e way jus t make my ic. it was on e mrt, i agreed. our first date, our first movie. our first kiss, in e cinema. and that time behind e swimming pool. e times at houg mrt, times where we'd walk around aimlessly not knowing what t do. so many more.. i can't let them go, i don't want to. i knoe very well myself that by doing all tis, not only am i not wasting my time, i'll always regret that i didnt even try. all i ask for is you t give me that chance. ask yourself, can you really give all tis up? do you really want to? will you end up regretting one day? you tell me, why not shorten e pain. if you havent even tried, how'd you know we'll nv become happier? it doesnt feel good t wake up every morning realising e fact that you're no longer here. i'll be waiting, for that day when i can wake up, messaging you, telling you that i love you. all over again. i can only wish, that we'll be like e past. lying wit me are so many faults, would you give me a chance t make it up t you, t me, t us? so many things've happened within a week, it's hard t imagine that jus 1 week ago i was planning so hard for today. a day which i've nv imagined that i wouldnt even spend wit you. it's hard t accept that, 1 week ago, what'll be on my mind'll be what time i'll be meeting you. 1 week later, what's on my mind is, when will i ever be able t hold you tight, again, like in e past.. i miss you, i really do. all of you. doing all tis isnt an obligation, so please, don't tell me t stop. please don't tell me t do smth that'll only let myself down. i really want you back, back by my side. all i need now is you t give me a big hug, and tell me that everything's gonna be okay. happy 21st birthday, happy 3rd month..
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1:49 AM
we were finally fine, though things didnt turn out e way i wanted.
and bcos of me, we're no longer gonna be fine again. it hurts t knoe that dont love me no more. and it hurts even more t knoe that i was e cause of it all. i admit my mistakes, what you've said really made sense. who can i blame but myself. and when i finally do understand, i've used up all my chances. it was like a game, everytime we fought, i felt like i was kicked out. but time and again you've broken e rules and let me back in, but tis time i guess im permanantly disqualified. i don't deserve someone better, maybe i don't even deserve you. but you were e first person i've ever loved this way. it seems as if, you're my first boyfriend all over again. i learnt lessons e hard way. but still. i dont wanna lose you tis way. you mean too much, im never gonna give you up. since our breakup isnt caused by a third party, i believe i'll still be able t do it. cos of you, you. i love you for e way you are, and t love someone else e way i love you, it's not hard. i can never. im not sure if you'll ever read tis. but if you do, again, i apologise. and i'll change. if only you'll give me a chance. i'll wait. even till e day you get attached t someone else. i'll still wait. if you ask me why. i'll just say. i dont wanna lose you. not someone like you, but you alone. cos no one has ever taught me so much. no one has ever been tis special in my life. i dont care if you say im still young, i dont even care if you call me immature cos im tearing everytime i knoe you arent here anymore. i just wanna tell you, i really love you. if you really decided t give me jus a last chance. i promise you. i'll do anything make it up t you. and even more. you dont have t do anything, till e day you tell me. that you've fallen in love wit me all over again. and for you, i'll be waiting. i'll always be. [[ boyz II men - on bended knees ]]
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9:15 PM
once and for all, we're through.
i thank you for e times you've brought me, all e things you've done for me, all e love you gave me. i thank you for e times you were here for me, and all e times you've given in t my attitudes. for you i've changed, and i'll continue t be tis way, if it makes me a better person. thank you for all e things you've taught me, for maturing me. tis will not sound pleasant t you, but. i've reflected on myself, i've swallowed my pride, i apologise for all of my faults. i hope you'll do e same. i guess both of us need t learn, though from a broken relationship. and i sincerely hope, you, will change too. t be a better person, nobody's perfect. hopefully e same things will not happen t either of us in our next relationship t come. i really loved you, and i believe you, i knoe you loved me too. but all tis is too much for both of us t take, you're not causing me harm. both of us will make each other unhappy. live for yourself, for e better. and not for me anymore. you no longer have me as a burden, you'll finally have a life you've always wished for. i wish you happiness, i'll miss you and all e times. i've never regretted all e things i've given t you, yes, not even what i've lost. i hope, and i knoe you will, always appreciate all that i've given. jus like i'll nv forget what you gave me. for e last time, i love you. goodbye, desmond.. evanescence - forgive me can you forgive me again i don't know what I said but i didn't mean to hurt you i heard the words come out i felt that i would die it hurts so much to hurt you then you look at me you're not shouting anymore you're silently broken i'd give anything now to kill those words for you each time i say something i regret i cry, i don't want to lose you but somehow i know that you will never leave me cause you were made for me somehow i'll make you see how happy you make me i can't live this life without you by my side i need you to survive so stay with me you look in my eyes and i'm screaming inside that i'm sorry and you forgive me again you're my one true friend and i never meant to hurt you maybe, maybe it's true. my relationships only could last for a mere few months, whereas not you. maybe e problem lies wit me. im sorry.
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2:31 AM
britney spears - everytime
notice me, take my hand why are we strangers when our love is strong why carry on without me everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings, i feel so small i guess i need you, baby and everytime i see you in my dreams i see your face, it's haunting me i guess i need you, baby i make believe that you are here it's the only way i see clear what have i done you seem to move on easy and everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings, i feel so small i guess i need you, baby and everytime i see you in my dreams i see your face, you're haunting me i guess i need you, baby i may have made it rain please forgive me my weakness caused you pain and this song's my sorry at night I pray that soon your face will fade away and everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings, i feel so small i guess i need you, baby and everytime i see you in my dreams i see your face, you're haunting me i guess i need you, baby. boyz II men and I.... darlin' i, i can't explain where did we lose our way girl it's drivin' me insane and i know i just need one more chance to prove my love to you if you come back to me i'll guarantee that i'll never let you go can we go back to the days our love was strong can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be oh God give me the reason i'm down on bended knee i'll never walk again, until you come back to me i'm down on bended knee so many nights i dream of you holding my pillow tight i know that i don't need to be alone when i open up my eyes to face reality every moment without you it seems like eternity i'm begging you, begging you come back to me can we go back to the days our love was strong can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be oh god give me the reason i'm down on bended knee i'll never walk again, until you come back to me i'm down on bended knee (baby, im sorry. please forgive me for all the wrong i've done. please come back home girl. i know you put all your trust in me, i'm sorry i let you down. please forgive me girl.) i'm gonna swallow my pride say I'm sorry stop pointing fingers, the blame is on me i want a new life and I want it with you if you feel the same don't ever let it go you gotta believe, in the spirit of love it can heal all things we won't hurt any more no I don't believe our love's terminal i'm down on my knees, begging you please come home can we go back to the days our love was strong can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be oh god give me the reason i'm down on bended knee i'll never walk again, until you come back to me i'm down on bended knee (wanna build a new life just you and me gonna make you my wife raise a family) can somebody tell me how to get things back the way things used to be oh god give me a reason i'm down on bended knee i'll never walk again, till you come back to me i'm down on bended knee i really love you.
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10:13 PM
do you know e real feeling of having your heart throb in pain..
here i am crying for a few hours, being so pathetic, begging you to stay. there i see you flirting, organising your bday, going to zouk. and i don't even know a single shit. is checking on you e only way t know what's happening? i don't like tis feeling. you say i dont trust you. how much more do you want me t trust you tis way. you said you loved me. how much did you show it. you said you aren't good enough for me. excuses. can you tell me, honestly. why do you want t leave. give me a valid reason. and i won't ask anymore.
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4:12 PM
it's yet another sleepless night. i lie awake, tossing and turning on my bed, thinking about all that has happened, particularly e disappointment earlier today. i wonder where this relationship is seriously heading, and as i suddenly realise that there're so many things which can never be undone or changed, i cried. can we really be like what we wanted t be at e start of e relationship? would you want to? i wonder whether all im doing is right, is this just a testing period, or is it just meant to end this way. there're so many differences t sort out. bad habits can be changed, but there;re some things, which will never be there once they're not. i admit i do have my flaws, but from e start of everything, have i ever changed for you? you tell me you want me to be e way i am cos` it's me, but have you ever tried accepting me this way? i put in a hundred and one for us, i gave everything. you said you did, and if it's true, i guess im selfish. cos` i want more. it hurts t have everything and nothing at once, it hurts t knoe you're around yet you're not.
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3:36 AM
HEY. =D
been kinda in a good mood recently. tis few days, rather. haha. im having mochi! woots. heaven beyond words! haha! hmm. was out wit peiyun yst. intensive shopping recently. currently owning 2 new tops, a new skirt, a new 3-quarts and belt! =D kinda slacked around, had lips. met up wit her fren(s) later in e night. haha i hate desperate kukus! = yes anyway, im bored. holidays are no life. it's so routine, waking up in e afternoon, playing comp, eat, sleep. OR STILL waking up in e afternoon, going out, come back, play comp, sleep. so no life right! YES, time to EAT! MUAHAHA. =D -signs off.
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1:12 PM
fixed my hdd, at least im not gonna rot in my bed for e whole day wit nothing t do anymore.
life's been wit quite a few rough patches recently, im still normal, nevertheless =D that ass retained me, i have just 2 more marks t go. -curses and swears. today has been another unproductive day. woke up, met maine and shaf in town. headed home early, had tuition. i hate all these moments when i feel so tied down yet so alone. i hate e times when, everybody's here, but of all pple, you're not. you're so near, yet so far. i feel so distant from you, i dont like tis feeling. i dislike keeping silent despite e disappointments you've given me, i dislike all e assumptions you make about me. all i wanted was a true relationship, where we'd come clean wit each other for even just minor stuff. i'm not like your ex, i might'nt be what you're looking for. but i am who i am. i can change for you, but would you ever be able t do e same for me? if only we could talk properly, if only we could see eye t eye on so many matters. if only you could understand what i want, if only we could go thru tis without those countless quarrels. i can, can you? would you ever be able t stand in my shoes? will we last like i've always wished..
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